So Hi,
Never done anything like this before, it's all quite weird to be honest. Basically I am a fourteen year old girl who isn't having easiest time really.
Been through a lot in the past year, my dad almost moving me to Yorkshire! (what??) and my friendship group just getting pulled apart and recently I have been so unbelievably stressed like nothing I have ever felt before. I know it's nothing overwhelmingly bad and there are people in way worse situations and it's all part of "growing up" but if I'm honest, however weak and pathetic this makes me look, it is tearing my life apart.
My relationship with my parents is a lot weaker than it used to be, I used to be their little princess but now when I get home I just keep myself to myself. There have been many times when I have scratched myself, I have only ever drawn blood once and yeh that might make me look like one of them sados who tries to do something for attention but never have the balls to do anything "proper", its still hurts me inside like nothing else. I take myself away from my friends so I don't get in their way because sometimes I just feel utterly worthless. Recently I have stopped eating. I skip breakfast and have a tiny lunch at school ( couple of bites of a sandwich, couple potatoes  carton of milk, or sometimes just water) Today I had 530 kcals and I know from all these leaflets and stuff that is way too little but I don't feel as if I could eat more, when i had more of a substantial meal at home for dinner ( I don't want my parents on my case so I try to eat more when I am with them) I just feel so guilty about it, I have started to consider throwing up my food, I don't know if I ever would. I am always just riddles with nerves, that's how it started when i was just too nervous to eat and now I just don't allow myself because I feel so fat. I am pretty certain I suffer from OCD which scares me as well  but I have been too scared to go to the doctors in case I am told I do have it. I feel as if I want to run away but I can never decide where to go so I just stay in my room.
Does anyone have any advice for me??
I just feel lost.
xxx